Oh man! I am rocking it out in 2016 so far! I know it’s only the 12th but I already feel like I have come a long way since last year! Last year was a crazy year for me, such highs and such lows and I experienced them all off of the pill which-wow-I had no idea what that would be like. Let me explain….I stopped the birth control pill towards the end of 2014 and immediately I felt like my head was more clear but as you know I instantly gained 13 lbs in that first month. I was shocked and then sad and started to panic almost every single darn day. Why did this happen, what am I doing wrong to cause this? Was it the fact that my hormones were changing because I was approaching 35? Did I have two too many IPA’s with Tim-you can’t blame others 😉 Why do I feel gross? Why am I even a personal trainer when all of 2015 I kept gaining weight rapidly….what business do I even have doing this when my body is completely out of control!
All year I went wallowing/beating myself up and and trying to figure out what was wrong with me. For an entire year-wasted time-wasted happiness-wasted interactions with loved ones. And being off the pill I experienced every move my body was going through ALL month long-it was freeing and also awful almost every single day. The symptoms you hear about are real and I had them ALL! I had been on the pill for so long I had no idea what it actually was fully like to experience ALL OF THAT. The reason I went off it truly was because I was being exposed to so many articles telling me that I “shouldn’t be on it”. What I have come to realize because my gut was literally telling me, was that my body needed those hormones, my body really really needed those pills and there is nothing wrong with that! THAT IS WHAT WORKS BEST FOR ME. I am glad I stopped it because I learned so many lessons from it. Everything is an experience with lessons attached to it.
Which brings me to my next lesson-ah, so many lessons last year…..YOU MUST DO WHAT WORKS BEST FOR YOU. Social media has exposed us to so much “should and shouldn’t” that it makes me want to just go into hiding. Should I brush my teeth with coconut oil? Should I say “I love you” to my son more or less than 5 times a day? Should I eat bread? Ohhh myyyy goshhhh!! Make it stop! Here is what I learned: No I shouldn’t use coconut oil in MY mouth because it actually causes a rash on MY face and I should say I love you so many times to Max because it makes him feel loved and YES, 100% yes I SHOULD EAT BREAD!! Gah.
Next lesson: WHEN I HELP PEOPLE I ALSO HELP MYSELF. So far this year I have 3 steady in home clients and have written 3 at home workout plans for 3 different people. I also help people in group fitness class get stronger, healthier and happier if only for 45 min 2 times a week. But guess what? All of that actually helps me stay focused and want to get better and do better. So please, I urge you to find your passion and help others-it’s a win/win!
My 2016 Motto: BE ENJOYABLE-life is short and a lot can happen in a short time. You must be able to find joy and then actually be enjoyable!! Life is too short! My brother was here and then like that he is up in Heaven (cheering on the Steelers right now for sure!). I didn’t get to say good bye or I love you no matter crazy you drive me because just like that it was his time to go. BUT I am not one to live with regrets. So I keep moving forward! This year I will marry by best friend (for real, he is) and I will cherish every moment I have with my son. Remembering always that life is too short to spend half of it worrying about how I don’t have him half of the time. 2015 was just too much and I am still possessing it-so many good and unexpected things happened! Max got a surprise baby brother, we went to Disney, Max started 1st grade, I got a new car, heck I even got my first iPhone, I went on a crazy 3 state trip and got engaged to Tim! Sometimes I think if I blink I will just wake up and it will have been a dream. It all happened so fast and I promise to not take it for granted. The holidays came and then they went and what I am left with is 2016, NOW, a year to be super inspired and another chance to be awesome!
I am back on the pill and already I feel tremendously better in just one week. It may not be the actually pill itself but the idea that I paid attention to MY body and did what was best for ME. I am in control. I love the start of a new year and all that comes with it. I do not feel the absolute need to change. I feel the complete want to change and just BE ENJOYABLE. I have learned so many valuable lessons in the past few years because I became aware and sought out those messages and lessons. I am an Aries and by nature I love ideas/taking chances-some are good and some are bad but one thing is for sure I was born to create and that is what I will keep doing for myself and for others. I am naturally curious and full of all kinds of wonderment and I hope I can share a little bit of that with you! My blog is simply about my ideas and a way for me to share them with you. I am not here to tell YOU what you should and shouldn’t do. I have knowledge and a healthy perspective into the fitness world. I have found a way to balance this thing we call life and that is what I want to share with you. I am always learning and always changing and that my friends is a very good thing! I hope the same for all of you reading this!
Cheers to this year, this day and this moment!