So in love…..
I can’t believe she is here after all these months, through getting so big due to extra fluid in the womb, sleepless nights, wondering if she will come early….if she will be the biggest baby ever….?
I had her 11/26/17 and she is the most beautiful girl in the whole wide world. Tiny or average size at 7.1 lbs and 19.5 inches long. I opened my eyes to this wide-eyed, calm as could be baby that I delivered naturally after my water leaking and having to force labor for the safety of the baby with pitocin. The contractions came on fiercely and strongly with almost no break. The silver lining….this little precious girl came to us in just about an hour and 8 minutes from start to finish. I know this because I texted a friend at 4:12 pm and was not in active labor. Charlotte Irene Carey was born just about an hour later at 5:20 pm. It was so fast and so incredible, so magical and unbelievable.
A few days leading up to her birth I asked her to send mommy a sign that she was clearly coming so that we could be at the hospital and not have an emergency situation. Because of my high fluid, there was a chance that if my water broke and gushed it could send her umbilical cord slipping through and out before she was all the way down and that would be bad if not at the hospital. I was convinced she would come early. Max was 1 week early and I was convinced she would be bigger than Max, being my second baby as they say they usually are.
Since starting to meditate in February of this year and getting pregnant in early March, I knew I was ready to do this birth naturally. I chose hypnobirthing as my method and I practiced the techniques and meditated sometimes 3 or sometimes 4 times a day for 9 months. I read my daily affirmation cards, read books, watched videos and absorbed it all. I took care of myself and only gained 21 pounds during pregnancy even though all throughout my pregnancy my belly was so big I constantly got asked if I was having twins. That was annoying. I really prepared and stayed calm and focused on this baby girl as much as I could to connect with her in the womb.
The sign she gave me came on the morning of the 26th when I noticed that my water may be leaking. Of course, you think, I will call the doctor and go all the way to the hospital to get checked and they will say, “sorry sweetie looks like you just peed yourself.” Therefore wasting a Sunday and going home with still no baby. She was due in 2 days and I knew they would induce me soon if I didn’t have her after 40 weeks but from Thanksgiving and the next few days, I knew inside she was getting ready and very close to coming. So we went in and brought our bags…..
My water was, in fact, leaking just a bit but enough that when they tested it they could prove that it was. Thank you, Charlotte for the sign! They admitted me and we hung out listening to my music, my birthing meditations, putting lavender oil on my wrist and neck. Talking to the nurses and giving them my birthing plan which was a one-pager that I found online written by a L & D nurse. The resident Doctor was impressed and loved it and already I felt like I was doing things right! Now, she warned me that when they start the pitocin it makes giving birth naturally that much harder so she wished me luck and said see ya later. She didn’t make it back until after the baby was born 🙂
Around 3 or so we started the pitocin. I wasn’t allowed out of bed because of the water breaking situation so I was afraid I would not be able to do the things that I had practiced like sitting, rolling, bouncing on the ball, squatting, walking around etc. I did not want to be bedridden! I wanted to be free! But, the answer was no. They gave me a peanut ball to lay on my side and wrap my legs around to open my pelvis. So, I had that which I loved and then eventually ended up wanting to chuck it across the room once the contractions started.
They tried to monitor the contractions and the baby, who was very active, but once that pitocin kicked in around 4:15 there was no getting that monitor on me. They were coming strong but the nurses only really had me to believe and they don’t know me so who was to say how dramatic I was being. They came, one after the other, stronger and faster and I barely could even do my breathing that I practiced. I did manage to do so for the first few but then all of a sudden I felt a kick or an electric shock inside that was, in fact, my water breaking. It felt like Charlotte kicked the hardest soccer ball into my goalie net womb. It was the strangest sensation and I asked the nurse what in the world was that. She said, “that’s your water breaking honey.” Wow. Ok. From that point on, it was relentless and by 5 pm I was pulling on Tim and screaming (calmly sort of) “she is coming! she is coming, get them, I know she is coming out of me!”….. is what I actually said. He went to the hallway to get them and to everyone’s disbelief they checked me and she was in fact coming and I was 10 cm. They were amazed at how fast because just 20 min earlier I was only 4 cm.
The bed dropped, the doctors and nurses came in and I pushed for what might have been 20 of those minutes. Again, texted my friend at 4:12 all was well. By 5 pm I am pushing this little angel out into this big world. It was so fast, so fierce and she was so amazing. I know my breathing beforehand helped me. I know the months of preparation helped me. Nothing could truly prepare me for that hour but I am so elated that I believed in myself and my strength to birth her that way. I was fully present. I felt EVERYTHING and it was AWESOME!!! I remember them cheering me on, I can still hear them in my head, total strangers helping and encouraging me to push her out. I felt like I was at a football game with actual cheerleaders around me. They were cheering and praising me after about how well I did and I was truly in shock over what just happened. They were saying how beautiful she was and I really felt like I accomplished the greatest thing in my life that day. I kept my eyes closed during those last few moments because I felt it was the only way I would get through it. They said, “open your eyes, she’s here!” I’ll never forget seeing how angelic she was and how amazing it was to see her for the first time. She was calm and graceful and I swear looked at me like wink-wink, we got this. I’ll ever forget them cheering me on and all the positivity in the room!
Tim was wonderful, the hospital staff was amazing and supportive and everything happened just as it should. I truly believe we are meant to be. This little girl and I. Tim and I. The three of us and don’t even get me started on how loving Max is with her! This house is full of love. The four of us make perfect sense.
We simply love her and I can’t wait to see what life lessons we will learn from being her parents. Everything is going great and we are settling into our new routine here. The universe has our back and I know we are on the right path.
She is officially 1 week old and thriving. I feel amazing and couldn’t be more grateful for this little blessing that has completed our little family. xo, Adrienne